The other day my aunt told our family on our group message a conversation she was having between her and my uncle. They were talking about how Michael Phelps physic is the perfect build for a swimmer, and if you could engineer a swimmer any way you wanted, you would want them to be built just the way Phelps is built. He is built perfectly for what he is doing. My cousin and best friend piped up and said, “Yeah, it as if he was knit together in his mothers womb!” (in reference to Psalms 139:13 “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.”) Okay, so he can be pretty funny sometimes, but he’s also RIGHT. God knew exactly what Phelps would be doing and KNIT him in the way that would be best suited for his task at hand!
I was also reading a blog the other day that you can read (here), that tells the story of a couples struggle with infertility. She talks of how hard waiting for the right day had been, but when that day did come, she couldn’t believe how perfectly God fit it into His plan. She says, “It’s as if God had planned it that way all along!” I used to read that verse, Psalms 139:13 and think that God made our human bodies in our mothers wombs, which is true, He did. But he also laid out the path for our entire life before we even hit the ground.
Sometimes I feel like God is taking me one way just to take me another way. I don’t always understand why I’m in the situations I am in. But time and time again God has shown me that I am EXACTLY where I am supposed to be. The center of God’s will is the best place to be. If I would have taken things into my own hands just because I didn’t understand what God was doing I would probably have a AA in Drafting and be in an unhealthy marriage. Although there’s nothing wrong with drafting, that is not the plan God has for me, or the plan I really wanted for myself. I just have to wake up every day knowing that no matter what happens, God is using it for good. (Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.) He had me work for YouthWorks for 2 summers. I thought that was so that I could eventually intern with the organization, work my way up, and become the CEO of an organization I loved. But I realize now, after much heartache and confusion, that God had me be a part of YouthWorks for 2 summers to show me a different side of ministry, to show me that I can be in ministry without being in pastoral ministry, to cultivate a love for non-profit work, to develop lifelong, valuable character and ways of thinking, and much more that I have yet to grasp. It’s so hard when God asks you to let go of a dream, but I do it knowing that His plans that he has designed for me from day 1 are better than anything that I could come up with. That is so true with so many situations in my life and this summer. I will keep loving God (Romans 8:28) even when it seems hard and not give up because His ways are perfect. I always say that God’s math isn’t the same as human math, but Isaiah 55:8&9, God says it best. “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” God has knit you and I for the exact situations He gives us, through His perfect love and strength.